. . . at the end of october i attended two funerals in the span of eleven days. my friend’s boyfriend was a pilot and his plane went down. there were three other people with him.

. . . i’m starting a business ‘instead of’ a family. and starting my second new job within three months. another year with multiple w-4s . . . a nod to the California days.

. . . i haven’t stepped foot in California since i left in the summer of 2017. pretty soon i’ll have been ‘back to the east coast’ for longer than i lived out west.

. . . i recently got into the closest thing to a fight i’ve ever been in with a friend i’ve known for fourteen years. over our views of earthly concerns and what the Word has to say about them.

. . . my electric oven caught on fire right before my very eyes. things could’ve gone very badly really quickly; but thanks be to God i was not harmed and the oven was only out of commission for a week.

. . . i feel scammed by the bank i’ve been with for the past 6 years. sitting across from someone else who couldn’t help me, i scrolled upon the words from Isaiah 61 . . . For I the Lord love justice; I hate robbery and wrong. I will faithfully give them their recompense, and will make an everlasting covenant with them.

. . . i’ve had additional opportunities to exercise my faith in God as my Protector . . . to see and sing Psalm 27 with the memory of God delivering David from people who were literally hunting him down.

. . . i’m resisting nostalgia as it pertains to the turf shack.


The Lord is good to all and His mercy is over all that He has made. this is so true and i believe it deeply. i have experienced it over and over and over and over again. i will never acquiesce to the notion that God’s character is something other than good, or that His Ways and actions need to be explained through convoluted word studies and philosophical gymnastics. we knew the rule and we broke it. and all of these tedious and terrifying results are the consequence . . . junk mail and jacked up judicial systems; greed and side effects and delays. and yet. God’s mercy endures.

so many of our songs and phrases and conversations are fixated on ‘finding beauty in our brokenness’ . . . in sometimes self-congratulatory tones. but i think we don’t, and haven’t appreciated that God is actually the One who chooses to do that for us. He chooses to look through the messiness of what we offer to the beauty of our intent.

. . . so much of our art is scuffed up with bad theology, but He doesn’t dismiss us as heretics. He celebrates whole-hearted attempts, and as we develop He continually instructs and corrects us to better skill and greater glory. {to be like Him is to have the humility to do the same for each other.}

as important as it is to be truthful and specifically acknowledge what contributes to the downcasting of a soul, we really shouldn’t forget that Christianity {if you will} is supposed to be uplifting. the upliftingness of it all is actually the whole point . . . that King Jesus be exalted and the glory of God be magnified through resurrection. we are supposed to lift our eyes and minds up to where our help comes from. ascension has been Bought for us.

. . . many are the afflictions of the righteous, but The Lord delivers him out of them all. {psalm 34:19}

. . . He raises the poor from the dust and lifts the needy from the ash heap. {psalm 113:7}

. . . since you have been raised to new life with Christ, set your sights on the realities of heaven, where Christ sits in the place of honor at God’s right hand. think about the things of heaven, not the things of earth. {colossians 3:1-2}

. . . peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you. not as the world gives do I give to you. let not your hearts be troubled; neither let them be afraid. {john 16:33}

Jesus is the Good Shepherd who leads us beside still waters and restores our souls. His yoke is easy and His burden is light.

May the Lord direct our hearts to the love of God and the steadfastness of our Messiah. {2 thessalonians 3:5}

take heart,

2 responses to “better skill & greater glory”

  1. I am so sorry to hear about the hardships you are having to go through. But the way your faith stands tall and doesn’t let the turbulence of even the worst of life knock it down is so incredibly inspiring!
    As hard as it is, I feel as though it is so much easier to see the goodness of God in the worst of times. Im walking along the same road, with medical issues, unresolved grief, and brand new scary experiences.
    But the king of kings is so good. He has been, and he will be always and forever ❤ Thank you so much for sharing!

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