Ten years ago, I graduated from Carolina and moved clear across the continent by way of God’s surprise miraculous provision. This was in the hipster days when only ‘early adapters’ used instagram … and the peak of blogosphere content consisted primarily of dslr photos and tiny sans serif type face. Good times and an era to live through.
I took the following gloriously watermarked photos on what must have been either a Nikon or Canon ‘point and shoot,’ feeling like I had in some way Arrived because my life resembled the sun-drenched Californian realities I had recently stumbled upon via Ruby Ellen Bratcher’s blog, Cakies.

life was simpler then,
but it didn’t feel that way.

I have grown and the earth groans more loudly, it seems – and with closer apart contractions.
Buried amongst my own tiny typeface thoughts on a blogger site called Rebekkah Made Whole {hence the stylized watermark initials} were these amusingly appropriate phrases …

i over anticipate needs that i won’t even have,
and get frustrated with God because i think He is not properly preparing for them

so as i wait, still, for employment;
as i face uncertain living arrangements,
i want to practice my gratitude

Reflecting on previous seasons and hunting through what my thoughts used to be, I can usually tell when I was ‘goin thru’, as they say by which months have the most frequent post-counts.
The pressure of stretching seasons squeezes musings out of me, like diamond sweat drops. And there have been gems. Even as I learn to be slower to speak, quicker to listen, and slow to get angry … slow to become ‘put out with‘ or offended by God for allowing in my life what will produce that which is pleasing to Him: faith + patience + inherited promises.
Not a formula, per se; but more like a recipe.
A recipe for living:

 Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds,  for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. // James 1:2-4

God is up to something in my life again, and I’m eager to find out what it is.


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